I put my foot upon the slope,
Begin to climb the hill;
Then satan niggles at my hope,
I slip against my will.
I turn my eyes upon the ground,
To see where I should tread;
I loose the joy that I have found,
As worries crowd my head.
It’s hard, so hard to lift my head,
And take my eyes off me;
But if I lift my eyes instead,
My Saviour I shall see.
And when I start to lift these eyes,
I find I’m not alone;
Lord Jesus helps these feeble tries,
He claims me as His own.
I long to say I’ll no more slide,
Be firm and follow Thee;
You place Your Spirit deep inside,
It’s not just up to me.
I thank You for Your love and grace,
I know that it is free;
I gaze upon Your lovely face,
And know You care for me.
© 12/2/96
COMMITMENT
How do I tell Your love to another?
How share it with a wandering brother?
When I just want to run and hide,
Deny this love You place inside.
I know no matter where I go,
You seek me out Your love to show.
But still I turn my face away,
And life gets harder every day.
The empty space grows cold and drear,
As someone pours in doubt and fear.
The more I try to stop the pain,
The more I hurt and hurt again.
I need to stop and turn to You.
Why does it seem so hard to do?
I know You long to set me free,
The one who’s stopping You, is me.
The walls I raise to keep You out,
Are satan’s lies,; guilt, fear and doubt.
When I commit to turn to You,
Your Spirit tells me what to do.
Your Word, we read, a two-edged sword;
Its message not to be ignored,
Yet satan seeks to turn away,
My plans to read it every day.
I cannot place all blame on he,
You say the battle’s up to me.
It’s up to me to stand and fight,
To take the course You show is right.
The battleground is in my mind,
Stand firm, I must, Your peace to find.
Your peace becomes my great reward
As I attempt to grasp Your sword.
And still I long to trust You more,
One day certain, the next unsure.
I need to stand by what I know,
Hold fast, hold tight and not let go.
You speak these words into my mind,
And with them doubts and fears bind.
Your love is good and kind and true,
For You are love and love is You.
I thank You that You’re always here,
Ever by me, ever near.
I try with You my heart to fill,
And hear You say, "Be still, be still".
I know that You give perfect rest,
I know You do for me what’s best,
I choose to give You all my trust,
There is no choice, I know I must.
© 17-19/2/96