Pressing Onward

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Pressing Onward

 

Once more I crawl into my hole,
Heart pounding,
Eyes darting,
Seeking where I may hide.

From what am I trying to hide?
Or who?
Or why?
Even I can never answer that!

Is it You, Oh Lord, from whom I run?
Foolish,
Impossible,
And in reality, my heart’s least desire.

Where could I go that would hide me?
And why should I
Run from You,
Who declares everlasting love for me?

I hide from myself and my fears,
Rejection, loneliness,
And in the running,
Compound the fears all the more. (4/4/05)

Come find me, oh Lord, in my foolishness,
Take my hand,
Draw me out,
Into Your searching, gentle, light.

Shine Your light into my wounds,
Open, cleanse,
And then sear them,
With the heat of Your purity and righteousness.

Lead me forward into Your love,
Again,
One more, again,
With Your eternal patience, and understanding love for me.

For You know my weakness and infirmity,
You walked this road
That You might feel
My fears and insecurities.

Almighty God – afraid? No way! It cannot be,
And yet, You tell us,
In Your Word,
We have a Priest, on high, who knows, and has felt our every weakness.

Forgive me, Lord, my doubts and fears,
Lift me to Your side,
To rise above the fear,
Uphold me through the struggles, that I might immerge strengthened in You.

Thank You, Lord, that You are with me,
In the depth of despair,
On the mountaintop of joyous trust and faith,
And on the rocky path of daily life between them. Amen

© 4-9/4/05